Now & Then

He said

You should have reject me from the start

I said

There's a reason why i never did so

He said

We should just stay as best fren or fren

I said 

I want u to stay as my dear

He said

M gonna make ur life miserable if you stay with me

I said

U never make my life miserable, u make me smile :)

I said

Why do you love me?

He said

I love you just the way you are & because you're different from others

He said

Why do love me?

I said

I love you just the way you are

He said

How can you prove ur love to me?

I said

<kiss him> i love u unconditionally

He said

It's God's love to his beloved sheperds

I said

There's no differents

He said

Why?

I said

When you love someone, there's no prove, by words or physical contact

Love happens naturally

He said

What do you expect from me?

I said

I want you to love me, only me, no one else, just me and honesty

He said

To be in a relationship, there must be trust in a relationship, without trust, the relationship won't work

I said

I guess but do trust is the only thing we need in a relationship?

He said

YES!!

I said

I'm afraid that one day you will break my heart

He said

I can't guarantee you bout this

I said

Why?

He said

I don't know, hard to say, i might or might not be...gonna break your heart someday

There goes again

He said

Why do you love me?

I said

If i don't love you, i will never let you hold, kiss and be with you right now

He said

Why do you still choose me even tho u know my past?

I said

Past is past, there's nothing u can do with past, everyone makes mistakes and have their own past stories

He said

U will always be my best frens

I said

OK!! [deep inside of me says, i cant accept this reality}

But now, it's for the best of us

If we're meant to be, we will get back together again....

Better for now

Better for now

But m gonna miss we've had gone thru b4

Whatever happens, let it be then

I guess there's a reason why it happens

for now, m feeling guilty of everyone

sory if i drag you guys into this matter

i never meant to do so

somehow, i know u care bout me

sometimes

there's a part of me saying

frens

i do need u but not every time

sometimes

i need my lonely time to think to think what u've said

and i will make my own decision

thanx! i really appreciate

FOR NOW

me and him

we're just best fren

people says this and that bout him

but i have my own opinion bout him

i dont care what others said bout him

i know he might be a bad boy

but deep inside of me says

he never touch me unless i let him did that

dont ever judge someone from the outside

never let ur problems get into other people problems

u might make things worse

there's always a choice

even tho u know it might be the wrong one

u still choose it

coz deep inside u says maybe it's the right choice

the best things u can do to urself is

listen to ur own heart

i guess there's a reason why i like him

instead of hating him

just like my 1st impression on him

karma

never hate someone

coz u might end up liking him

there's nothing to say between me and him

i prefer our relationship for now

me, him, best fren!

BEST FREN!!

I love you MOM!!~~~

I love you mum

You are my greatest gift of all

Sorry if i've done wrong to mum

I know i did it all the time

I never hear what u r trying to say

From the start when i was a small and tiny..haha

when i cry, u hold me and ask me not to cry

yet m still crying and crying

actually i dont understand what mummy trying too say

she's patient when i want to b feed at night

you will do anythg to keep me happy and safe

that is what mum do

when m sleepy

u will hold me and sing a nursery rhymes to me

then i fell asleep

no wonder i love music so much

been exposed to ''what is music when m still a baby back then''

as i get taller n bigger

i know how to talk n walk on my own but still i need them

this is the time when m v naughty

very very

i go to playground n playing around

n then my mum scolded me

i hate her but then think wisely

she scolded n beat me not coz she hates me

coz she loves me

she wants me to become a good girl 

a few years then

i grew up

i know how to evaluate n making decision

its just a beginning 

this is the medium stage

i chose any frens i wan to b with

when i wanna study

its up to me

she never force to do anythg i dont wanna do

this time, feels like she wants me to make up my own decision

but its just a beginning

when i have problems and difficulties

she will be there with me and hold my hand

tell me, ''u need to b strong''

when i finish my high school years

this is a big challenges come

i hav to choose what i wanna b 

this decision will affect my future

100%

completely

been thru tears n smile

finally i choose what i wan for my future

i wanna b a pharmacist

haha

again, i go to a new environment

something new,

 different n challenging

i went to a new place 

all alone, by myself

this time

m all by my own

everythg

this is the hardest one

i have to do everythg on my own

i dont even know anyone that surrounds

all of em are strangers

as time passes by

i meet many frens

but m proud of myself coz m strong enuf to stand on my own even tho my family arent by my side

sometimes u gotta have faith n believe in urself

everythg happens for a reason

no matter how bad ur situation is

there will always a way to solve it

....always....

Now m a bit nearer to my family

a place where its easier from me to go back to my hometown

i've been thru many things

i think my life is so stupid

but when i think again

its just a beginning

i havent become a mum yet

when i become a mum

i will know how my mum feels right now n back when i was a small little tiny girl

MUMMY 

u are my greatest of all in life

and becoming is the greatest gift for me when it is time

but now its time for me to b a student n chase my dreams first

when i become a mum

i wan b the greatest mum

its a great responsibility give by God

thanx mummy

bcoz of u

i can stand on my own firmly

bcoz of u

m born to rhis world

n thanx again

u bring n keep me safe inside ur wimb for 9 months

thats one of the biggest sacrifice a mum did to their precious prince n princess

when everyone have the opportunities to become a mum

never be afraid

b proud of urself

I love you MUM n happy Mother's day to every mum in this world...

I'm proud of all of mums out there!! 

My heart won't change

Sorry for what wat i've done

M fault

Once i get rid of you from my heart and mind, i will owez think of u

But it takes me a year or more for me to get rid of me

Watever memories we hav before

I will treasured it

Good or bad

It reali meant for me

What happen btwn us

Mayb we're not meant for each other

We're frens

But m gonna miss what we've been thru

But i dont think u remember everythg we've been thru

its just a bad memories for ya

Whether its bad or good, it will something i nd to keep and make it as lesson

Thanx for everythg

I knw u love me

Sometimes time will reveal everythg btwn us

I always made u upset

But one thing

I will never break my promises

all the memories we've been thru

It will always on my mind

Good luck 

Every stories u hav told me

i remember everythg

just tht u never realize

both of us nvr realize

we're on the wrong path

Hope ur dreams come true

Wateva on ur mind right now

hope it is a positive one

I wont go ur way anymore

coz m more a burden to u before

i love and like u unconditionally

i dont care bout ur money and ur past

i knw all bout ur past

i knw....

just tht m still shock that a guy like u...love me

its 2 good 2 b true

I don't deserve you coz i hurt u so much and make u confused

Now i know when it comes to love 

nothing is right or wrong

it happens when u least expect it

oh well, let it flow...........

gonna find sum1 one day but wont find some1 like u...

I LOVE ME!!!~

Messed up

Everythg happn for a reason

i guess m finally free from u

but i wish i can hear one explaination frm u

is it coz i wan 2 end things btwn us or is it just u get bored of me

but now i know who change

YOU!!!

I guess when u wan me back again..

i need a thousand of reason why u want me back

ur ego make us apart

tell me what do wanna hear from me

then i'll tell u

u said u love me b4 bt now not anymore

what the hell ur trying to do 2 me anyway

m not a doll or a barbie for ya to play

m just a girl who wants a guy to love just the way she is

u said u need time

i give u time

bt u give me zero

i said i need time 2 but u think the other way round

u wan me to trust u

but u never trust me

how can u ever gain a trust from me if u never trust me

What goes around, comes around

ur 2 kind 2 ur frens and every1 till u 4got wat u want in ur life

grow up please, not everythg can b paid with kindness or reward when ur kind 2 ppl

u might end up get urself hurt

when u get hurt

u blame others

please, u shud have blame on urself

ur older than me, u shud knw what u reli wan n think more mature than i do

but ur not

ur just like a kid to me

Grow up!!

I guess u laugh when i begged on u

when i say i wan 2 end everythg, i didnt meant

my heart very cold and tears fall from my eyes

but i cant move backwards coz nothing can change 

but hope one day u realize that i never want 2 make ur heart confused

sorry if i did

coz ur my 1st

but in the end u never understd

u said i never understd u but actually i do undrstd u

its u who messed and never realize that

m honest to u but when i c ur eyes

lies a thousand secrets in ur eyes

i know ur lies

but i never wan to know ur past

past is past

present is present

ur the one messed up

not me