Thankful

There are times when we feel like giving up and just let go of everything we have in your and choose the easiest path. But somehow, the long and rough journey makes us stronger eventually. Am i right? It's true. It isn't game for us to just fooling around and take everything lightly.

Giving up is a situation all of us have been through. It's just a test. Testing us how far we can bear up with all the challenges we go through. Maybe you have gone through many difficult situation but can you just open your eyes widely. Many people out there, millions and millions people going through the same phase as you are right now. Why giving up? Why?

Be thankful for having those who love us for who we are

Be thankful because we're perfect ( I didn't mean to say the oh so perfect one), i mean your aren't disabled. Disabled or special ones out there still can hang on to their life and move on with a big smile on their face because they are thankful enough to be brought in to this world. And happy enough to have there are many people out there love them even though in whatever conditions they are right now.

Be thankful you still have someone giving you care and love.

Without love, who you are to be in this present. Think of the baby and children that aren't able to live longer. Unlike you, you are born healthily and given much care and love. Seeing kids and children that don't have anyone to love them (orphans), they still can smile an be happy when anyone or everyone out there visiting them and telling stories to them. Remember the babies that couldn't live as their ''irresponsible'' parents seems to reject them and kill them. How sad it's to know this story. Millions of wed couple out there couldn't have babies and wanna adopt one. Instead of killing the babies, it's good to just give to the ones who wants the babies. It's a blessed things to do than to kill a human.

Be thankful...... :)

My life wouldn't sucks without you, am sucks without me myself

People say they will lose everything if they loses someone they love
It's true but it's just a temporary feeling inside of you burns
Burns, burning into tears
Initially you just can't fight your feelings, sadness, desperateness to scream and crying out loud
It's a basic nature of human
You can't just blame yourself for something that's not worth a single tears of yours
Don't ever have those guilt in yourself
Be strong enough and happy that you're strong of all these times
And you can smile even though inside of your soul deep within you need someone to rip off your heart just to end your sadness, but think of it as a temporary feeling

When time pass by, you will eventually know it's worth the fight
What you're going through before, makes who you are right now "STRONGER"
Especially when someone you love, gone and died
They no longer visible in your eyes, no longer in your arms, stay by your side through the night
Warm soft and gentleness of your loved ones seems to fade away
Not it's not, the one you loved ones will always stay by your side without you knowing
Holding your hands, hugging you when you're cold & cried alone all by yourself, kiss your foreheads and smile at you because you can go through all the hard times

When you loses someone the one who you ever share everything in life, be it your lover
Look back, move on, smile and be proud of yourself
That you're brave to let go of someone you can't live without and love
For the rest of your life, it's impossible for you to hang or hold onto someone who's not meant for you
So it's best to let go and unattached to something that never meant to attached to your life in your future
Because one day you will meet someone better than previous one
Probably the one you're destined for is somehow going through the same phase too
Don't worry, life still goes on
Think of it as an experienced, best experienced you'll never forget in your life

When you fail to do a task or fail achieving a goal you've set
Confide yourself that life is not about winning
Sometimes we need to fail, in order to learn the meaning of victory
Be sure that, don't let failure destroys your self-esteem and confidante
Don't think of it as a failure, think of it as beginning of story of your life
You never know what the future might holds for you
Life is at its best when you least expect

Conclusion:
Your life wouldn't sucks without ''them'', life would be sucks without you, yourself

Tanjung Aruuuuu..... :)

26.12.2011

Somewhere in Sabah, 2nd day of chirstmas we're going to beach just to ease up our own mind

Relaxing day aite....& it's fun!

Strolling along the shore..... Ain't it fun rite? Clear sky, just few clouds

Fun around da beach, nice view of the sky. Actually it's just an edit version of sky. The original one, you probably see clear sky with few clouds. Kinda warm and breezy at da beach, especially because it's year end.

Small crab runnin around da beach!!! hahaha

The back of this view, i guess it's hotel or whatever it is....hehehehe

Chillin at the cafe, just for fun since we've stroll along da beach.... Guess what type of drink am holding right there? hehehehe.... BEER! C'mon, just fewww glassesss of beer enough for me to have fun and forget all the problems i've been through. Well at least.....am being a good girl here in Sabah. Teheee...

It's for the best

I went away, i guess it's for the best. I guess I can't take it anymore. I thought that the 2nd time we're back together again, things keeps getting better. Anyway, things just passing by and simply gone. He don't deserve my love at all and I know someone else out there are the one for me.



Somehow i will always remember him anyway. He always blame me for leaving him all alone but actually he's the one leaving me 1st without saying anything. How it hurts to be treated that way.

I've nothing to say but hoping and wishing him best of luck. Hope he choose the best, not only for him but for Heidi too.... I'm too young to become a mummy i guess. I've a long way to go.

But i do know that one day i'll prove to him I can live without his love and am stronger than he could ever thought of. Going through all the hard and easy times, do taught me something. I've learn a lot but yea, i know i need to learn more. That's life. From time to time, there's a lot things and experience we're going through.

Just like how we grew up, become taller day by day till it's time to stop. That's life.

Now it's OVER OVER OVER..... :)

Love me for who i am...

what is love? I don't really know what love means to me. Somehow, everyone knows and feels love before. Be it from urself, your families, your friends & etc.. 


Why do you choose to love them even though you know they are lacking in many ways??


Why do you say i love you even though you know one day you gonna get hurts by someone you love so much??


Why do still love them even though they hate you or don't love you anymore??


Can love fade easily??


Can love remain and stay forever??

Some people says it is a lie. But for me, it isn't a lie. It's just a beautiful lies. No one in this world born without love. Honestly, you love urself right? If not yourself, then God loves you. Right?
Whatever lacks you do have, God still loves and accepts you for who you are. Even if you hate yourself so much, you just can't denied, few people out there loves you. But the most important thing you should know; you gotta love yourself, before you let others love you!

TIPS to boost up and learn how to love yourself:

• Wake up early in the morning with a smile on your faces :)
• Focus more on what happens TODAY, put aside the future & most important your PAST
• Drink a cup of tea or hot milo and sit on the balcony, watch the sun rises (would it be nice to watch this world wakes up with you too) ^^
• Take your time by doing a nice breakfast for yourself (breakfast is important as it gives you energy to start your day; NEVER skip breakfast)
• Choose any lively or bright hues for to wear, anything fun, bright, simple & comfortable!
• Call your besties to go for girl day out
• Pamper yourself with spa, manicure, shopping, hang out (these are the fave stuff girls do love)
• Smile to strangers, even though your not okay on the inside, but smile at others can or maybe brighten up their day even more.
• Say please and thank you (be thankful)
• Look up on quotes how to boost up your confidante. And paste it near your bed, where it's the first thing you read when you wake up. Example, ''i am pretty'' or ''i love myself'' this can make yourself become even more confident with yourself.
• Do a journal or blog of yourself (one of ways to express yourself; learn about yourself)
• Be open, don't be a narrow-minded person. 
• Listen to music ( Example, who says by Selena gomez)
• Sleep early, take good care of yourself, mental and physically
• Don't be afraid your own body, learn about your own body, (love my curves) 
• Take up gym class, dancing class, martial arts or yoga class. (to occupied your times if your not busy, if you're busy, you can take up on weekends)
• Ignore your enemies, they completely wasting their times thinking about you
• Be yourself and listen to your heart
• Let go of your alter ego
• Let go of past, everybody makes mistakes, learn from your mistakes
• Appreciate those who sticks with you during laughter and hard times
• Treasure all the memories you've had with someone you love even though some of it might be painful for you to flashback again. This is called life.
• Nobody's perfect! 

Don't hate or blame yourself just because you're feeling guilty of whatever it is. For life meant to be like a roller coaster! Do have ups and downs. 


It's not an easy steps to love yourself, takes time too. Even for a sec. Smile! :)

Please understand...!

I love you

I miz u

Past tense dear!

No more in present..

Ya gotta accept d fact tht m x longer urs anymore

not only tht

u've hurt me

betrayed me

played me

but thts all in d past

what more can i say...

me + u = nothing

even tho it isn't an easy thing to 4get

but time does play its part in my life

the show must goes on 

even tho i knw ho badly i've been hurt

it's a lesson i shud keep in my heart

coz m gonna use it as guide book in d future

before u said u love me and u miz me

then u sudd gave up on me

coz u tot i gv u mix signals

huh?

is it true?

no m not

isn't love takes time to grow

just like how flower grows

it's kinda impossible 4 flower to grow instantly 

even tho fertilizers does exist in this world

to make it even more healthier 

u said i cheated on u n make u as my 2nd one

wat the fuck up??

R u talkin bout me or r u talkin bout urself?

how can u make me trust u if u never trust me from the start..

GILA!

m such a fool tht i fall into ur sweet words

u DAMN sweet talker..

i should hav realized ur real motives on me

at last u put off ur mask and show the real u..

u keep on blaming me for no reason n yea finally u said u wan us 2 b frens only

X more relationship

ok i get it, u've got sooo many things to handle!

somehow u can't handle me..??

obviously ur a jerk asshole

just say u got another girl

instead of sayin i can't handle our-so-called relationship

just admit it u x want me anymore

and m happy to let u go n stop put a hope on u anymore

wat a guy..

and u even point a finger at me saying i talk shit

accused people esp me wit no evidence at all

and now u say sorry

but do u think sorry can change anythg so easily
wake up dear!

sory couldnt change anythg..at all
mayb a bit but

sorry can change anything if action includes in...

not only action..ur willingness to change and admit ur own mistakes

somehow, ur still lying to me anyway

by sayin ur single ''rite now''

single??

m x a fool dear..i got eyes n ears

ur such a pretender

can u just stop pretend in front of me..

sorry to say m x an easy girl where u can go in and out of my life..

TQ

I never meant to say something bad bout u

but if u really want me to do it

YES I CAN

i could fight and seek revenge but thts x who i am

i forgive u n please undrstd tht im tryin to move on

i have to

u don't know how much u've hurt me

i couldn't live like that anymore

oh well, u knw i can live without u

but without my besties and faith in myself

i wouldn't have come this far

i thought i couldn't 4get u

i will cry all nite long

but yes!!

I've made it..

I can prove 2 u how strong m i rite now

strong on the inside n outside

U can break everythg besides u with ur martial arts skill

but u can't never break my heart again..

and i hate the way u blame my frens coz u cant have me

they arent d reasons y i never fall for u

u shud blame on my instinct

my instinct says

u gonna hurt me someday

u gonna leave me alone someday

u gonna played me someday

u gonna lied to me someday

u've done all this

u make me fall for u 

but then m thankful coz u only hav my love n not my soul n my everythg..

And meeting u wasn't an accident i guess

it's a lesson i nd to learn from so tht i can b stronger and i can choose and meet the better one in the future

I understd ur feelings

But will u ever understand my feelings nw and b4

the answer is NO!!

Finally..

i only wish for 1 thing

please UNDERSTAND that

i cant treat u like i was before

i cant never care bout u like i was before

i cant smile at u like i was before

i cant hang around wit u like i was before

i cant joke wit u like i was before

and 

finally

i cant LOVE u like i was before coz my heart stops beating for you

And nothing gonna change coz i wanna move forward..

As life goes on..

Show must goes on..

A real show..

Not a fake one..

I ain't gonna fake my life..

Coz faking is fucking to me!!

I love you MOM!!~~~

I love you mum

You are my greatest gift of all

Sorry if i've done wrong to mum

I know i did it all the time

I never hear what u r trying to say

From the start when i was a small and tiny..haha

when i cry, u hold me and ask me not to cry

yet m still crying and crying

actually i dont understand what mummy trying too say

she's patient when i want to b feed at night

you will do anythg to keep me happy and safe

that is what mum do

when m sleepy

u will hold me and sing a nursery rhymes to me

then i fell asleep

no wonder i love music so much

been exposed to ''what is music when m still a baby back then''

as i get taller n bigger

i know how to talk n walk on my own but still i need them

this is the time when m v naughty

very very

i go to playground n playing around

n then my mum scolded me

i hate her but then think wisely

she scolded n beat me not coz she hates me

coz she loves me

she wants me to become a good girl 

a few years then

i grew up

i know how to evaluate n making decision

its just a beginning 

this is the medium stage

i chose any frens i wan to b with

when i wanna study

its up to me

she never force to do anythg i dont wanna do

this time, feels like she wants me to make up my own decision

but its just a beginning

when i have problems and difficulties

she will be there with me and hold my hand

tell me, ''u need to b strong''

when i finish my high school years

this is a big challenges come

i hav to choose what i wanna b 

this decision will affect my future

100%

completely

been thru tears n smile

finally i choose what i wan for my future

i wanna b a pharmacist

haha

again, i go to a new environment

something new,

 different n challenging

i went to a new place 

all alone, by myself

this time

m all by my own

everythg

this is the hardest one

i have to do everythg on my own

i dont even know anyone that surrounds

all of em are strangers

as time passes by

i meet many frens

but m proud of myself coz m strong enuf to stand on my own even tho my family arent by my side

sometimes u gotta have faith n believe in urself

everythg happens for a reason

no matter how bad ur situation is

there will always a way to solve it

....always....

Now m a bit nearer to my family

a place where its easier from me to go back to my hometown

i've been thru many things

i think my life is so stupid

but when i think again

its just a beginning

i havent become a mum yet

when i become a mum

i will know how my mum feels right now n back when i was a small little tiny girl

MUMMY 

u are my greatest of all in life

and becoming is the greatest gift for me when it is time

but now its time for me to b a student n chase my dreams first

when i become a mum

i wan b the greatest mum

its a great responsibility give by God

thanx mummy

bcoz of u

i can stand on my own firmly

bcoz of u

m born to rhis world

n thanx again

u bring n keep me safe inside ur wimb for 9 months

thats one of the biggest sacrifice a mum did to their precious prince n princess

when everyone have the opportunities to become a mum

never be afraid

b proud of urself

I love you MUM n happy Mother's day to every mum in this world...

I'm proud of all of mums out there!! 

My heart won't change

Sorry for what wat i've done

M fault

Once i get rid of you from my heart and mind, i will owez think of u

But it takes me a year or more for me to get rid of me

Watever memories we hav before

I will treasured it

Good or bad

It reali meant for me

What happen btwn us

Mayb we're not meant for each other

We're frens

But m gonna miss what we've been thru

But i dont think u remember everythg we've been thru

its just a bad memories for ya

Whether its bad or good, it will something i nd to keep and make it as lesson

Thanx for everythg

I knw u love me

Sometimes time will reveal everythg btwn us

I always made u upset

But one thing

I will never break my promises

all the memories we've been thru

It will always on my mind

Good luck 

Every stories u hav told me

i remember everythg

just tht u never realize

both of us nvr realize

we're on the wrong path

Hope ur dreams come true

Wateva on ur mind right now

hope it is a positive one

I wont go ur way anymore

coz m more a burden to u before

i love and like u unconditionally

i dont care bout ur money and ur past

i knw all bout ur past

i knw....

just tht m still shock that a guy like u...love me

its 2 good 2 b true

I don't deserve you coz i hurt u so much and make u confused

Now i know when it comes to love 

nothing is right or wrong

it happens when u least expect it

oh well, let it flow...........

gonna find sum1 one day but wont find some1 like u...

I LOVE ME!!!~