My life wouldn't sucks without you, am sucks without me myself

People say they will lose everything if they loses someone they love
It's true but it's just a temporary feeling inside of you burns
Burns, burning into tears
Initially you just can't fight your feelings, sadness, desperateness to scream and crying out loud
It's a basic nature of human
You can't just blame yourself for something that's not worth a single tears of yours
Don't ever have those guilt in yourself
Be strong enough and happy that you're strong of all these times
And you can smile even though inside of your soul deep within you need someone to rip off your heart just to end your sadness, but think of it as a temporary feeling

When time pass by, you will eventually know it's worth the fight
What you're going through before, makes who you are right now "STRONGER"
Especially when someone you love, gone and died
They no longer visible in your eyes, no longer in your arms, stay by your side through the night
Warm soft and gentleness of your loved ones seems to fade away
Not it's not, the one you loved ones will always stay by your side without you knowing
Holding your hands, hugging you when you're cold & cried alone all by yourself, kiss your foreheads and smile at you because you can go through all the hard times

When you loses someone the one who you ever share everything in life, be it your lover
Look back, move on, smile and be proud of yourself
That you're brave to let go of someone you can't live without and love
For the rest of your life, it's impossible for you to hang or hold onto someone who's not meant for you
So it's best to let go and unattached to something that never meant to attached to your life in your future
Because one day you will meet someone better than previous one
Probably the one you're destined for is somehow going through the same phase too
Don't worry, life still goes on
Think of it as an experienced, best experienced you'll never forget in your life

When you fail to do a task or fail achieving a goal you've set
Confide yourself that life is not about winning
Sometimes we need to fail, in order to learn the meaning of victory
Be sure that, don't let failure destroys your self-esteem and confidante
Don't think of it as a failure, think of it as beginning of story of your life
You never know what the future might holds for you
Life is at its best when you least expect

Conclusion:
Your life wouldn't sucks without ''them'', life would be sucks without you, yourself

It's for the best

I went away, i guess it's for the best. I guess I can't take it anymore. I thought that the 2nd time we're back together again, things keeps getting better. Anyway, things just passing by and simply gone. He don't deserve my love at all and I know someone else out there are the one for me.



Somehow i will always remember him anyway. He always blame me for leaving him all alone but actually he's the one leaving me 1st without saying anything. How it hurts to be treated that way.

I've nothing to say but hoping and wishing him best of luck. Hope he choose the best, not only for him but for Heidi too.... I'm too young to become a mummy i guess. I've a long way to go.

But i do know that one day i'll prove to him I can live without his love and am stronger than he could ever thought of. Going through all the hard and easy times, do taught me something. I've learn a lot but yea, i know i need to learn more. That's life. From time to time, there's a lot things and experience we're going through.

Just like how we grew up, become taller day by day till it's time to stop. That's life.

Now it's OVER OVER OVER..... :)

Please understand...!

I love you

I miz u

Past tense dear!

No more in present..

Ya gotta accept d fact tht m x longer urs anymore

not only tht

u've hurt me

betrayed me

played me

but thts all in d past

what more can i say...

me + u = nothing

even tho it isn't an easy thing to 4get

but time does play its part in my life

the show must goes on 

even tho i knw ho badly i've been hurt

it's a lesson i shud keep in my heart

coz m gonna use it as guide book in d future

before u said u love me and u miz me

then u sudd gave up on me

coz u tot i gv u mix signals

huh?

is it true?

no m not

isn't love takes time to grow

just like how flower grows

it's kinda impossible 4 flower to grow instantly 

even tho fertilizers does exist in this world

to make it even more healthier 

u said i cheated on u n make u as my 2nd one

wat the fuck up??

R u talkin bout me or r u talkin bout urself?

how can u make me trust u if u never trust me from the start..

GILA!

m such a fool tht i fall into ur sweet words

u DAMN sweet talker..

i should hav realized ur real motives on me

at last u put off ur mask and show the real u..

u keep on blaming me for no reason n yea finally u said u wan us 2 b frens only

X more relationship

ok i get it, u've got sooo many things to handle!

somehow u can't handle me..??

obviously ur a jerk asshole

just say u got another girl

instead of sayin i can't handle our-so-called relationship

just admit it u x want me anymore

and m happy to let u go n stop put a hope on u anymore

wat a guy..

and u even point a finger at me saying i talk shit

accused people esp me wit no evidence at all

and now u say sorry

but do u think sorry can change anythg so easily
wake up dear!

sory couldnt change anythg..at all
mayb a bit but

sorry can change anything if action includes in...

not only action..ur willingness to change and admit ur own mistakes

somehow, ur still lying to me anyway

by sayin ur single ''rite now''

single??

m x a fool dear..i got eyes n ears

ur such a pretender

can u just stop pretend in front of me..

sorry to say m x an easy girl where u can go in and out of my life..

TQ

I never meant to say something bad bout u

but if u really want me to do it

YES I CAN

i could fight and seek revenge but thts x who i am

i forgive u n please undrstd tht im tryin to move on

i have to

u don't know how much u've hurt me

i couldn't live like that anymore

oh well, u knw i can live without u

but without my besties and faith in myself

i wouldn't have come this far

i thought i couldn't 4get u

i will cry all nite long

but yes!!

I've made it..

I can prove 2 u how strong m i rite now

strong on the inside n outside

U can break everythg besides u with ur martial arts skill

but u can't never break my heart again..

and i hate the way u blame my frens coz u cant have me

they arent d reasons y i never fall for u

u shud blame on my instinct

my instinct says

u gonna hurt me someday

u gonna leave me alone someday

u gonna played me someday

u gonna lied to me someday

u've done all this

u make me fall for u 

but then m thankful coz u only hav my love n not my soul n my everythg..

And meeting u wasn't an accident i guess

it's a lesson i nd to learn from so tht i can b stronger and i can choose and meet the better one in the future

I understd ur feelings

But will u ever understand my feelings nw and b4

the answer is NO!!

Finally..

i only wish for 1 thing

please UNDERSTAND that

i cant treat u like i was before

i cant never care bout u like i was before

i cant smile at u like i was before

i cant hang around wit u like i was before

i cant joke wit u like i was before

and 

finally

i cant LOVE u like i was before coz my heart stops beating for you

And nothing gonna change coz i wanna move forward..

As life goes on..

Show must goes on..

A real show..

Not a fake one..

I ain't gonna fake my life..

Coz faking is fucking to me!!