My first

How can i describe..

I never like him before..

I had a bad impression on him for the first..

yea, i admit he's everything a gal could ask for and just like he said bout himself, he's hot..??

somehow, thats not only the reason why i chose him..

maybe coz everytime i be with him, i can be me..

i never pretend when m with him..

well, some of guys i meet before, i cant never be myself when m with them..

i dont know why..

i just cant figure it out why i can be me when m with him..

things btwn me and  him seems complicated..

our age gap bout 7 years..

he's hot but m not..

m smart and he's not..

the best thing bout him, he can make me laugh, even a weird joke..

is it a sign that i reli have fall for him..

i never try to like him b4..

coz he looks like a playboy..

so m very cruel to him..

but at last, there's a limit where i hav to stop being so cruel to him..

in my heart says it all..

somehow my relationship nvr goes out v smooth just what others might imagine..

things btwn a bit rocky..

due to his personal problems and for me coz of my frens opinion bout him..

but my sis or my fren ever said i have to listen to my own heart or instinct..

instead of listening to other people..

but deep inside my heart, he reli likes me..

and i like him too..

when he's with me, he's more like a kid..act younger than i do..gosh..

recently we sort things out again..

he had a big family problem..

he told me everything..

and m listening patiently..

and there he goes..

he want us to be fren 1st..even better.

yea i understd..

and i hate this feeling..

but i couldnt blame him..

not his feeling nway and i know he never meant to do it..

somehow he shouldnt make me fall for him from the start..

its a cruel thing for him to do that to me..

but things btwn us r okay..

nothing much for now

 and i hope......

and

lies a big secret he wants to tell me but he will tell it till things btwn gets even more serious..

i guess i know what he wants to tell..

maybe..i guess..

but my heart says hope its not what i thought of..

hope so.....

m owez thinking why my first could be that bad or challenging..

just like ppl said..

there's a reason why people meet...

there's always a reason to everything happen in our life..

it depends on us to make it as lesson and appreciate whats in our life..

whether its good or bad..

definitely crazy but there's a reason..

R-E-A-S-O-N

Whats happening???

What happen..

Suddenly i realize..

A few weeks after v-day, somethg happen..

Something i've wish..

And it come true the way i want it to be..

What is it?

All i want is to meet a guy and have a boyfren..

And yea, i meet a guy and became fren with him..

Not only that..

The night i knew him..

He and his frens trying to win my heart..

They got drunk and play truth and dare games with my gal fren..

So i got away..in order for them to feel more open without me..

i guess..

there goes..

truth out..

each one of them did confessed..

alcohol in, truth out..

right?

they are trying to get my numb but only one got..

due to certain reason..haha

till midnite all truth came out..

and yea, my gal frens made it..

dig out all the secrets..

there's one guy that reali likes me..

i dont know what his intention but hope it's a good one..

but i do knw..that i like him.....